I Promise

I want to feel that pain,
From the razor blade.

I want to feel that blood fall down,
Like acid rain.

It's been 7 months,
And I just can't take it.

Let em cut my skin deep,
And let my adrenaline flow.

Nails just won't cut it,
Give me back my razor blade.

A cut here,
A cut there,
It'll heal.

Just give me back my drug,
And I'll be myself again.

I won't do it too much,
I promise...

My Day

I'll bring that blade down,
And make myself fall to teh ground.

Reopening new scars,
I'll be gone within a few hours.

Possibly splitting a vein,
I'm addicted to this pain.

My family will wonder "why?
Why didn't she say goodbye?"

I just no longer care,
With blood now flowing from my tear.

And now with this knife,
I'll end my life.

"She's gone", they'll say.
Today was my day,
And I chose it.

Can't You See?

I'm shaking,
I'm losing control.

I want you,
I need you.

You make me dizzy,
But in such a good way.

Can't you see,
I can't get over you.

I've tried,
But still,
Everytime I see your face...
I lose breath,
And my heart skips a beat.

I need you...
Can't you see?

I love you...
Can't you see?

Not Yet

We're so much alike,
It's insane.

She's so sweet,
And can make me smile.

She's a close friend already,
And she's truly amazing.

I wonder if she'll fall for me,
And if we'll take a chance together.

I'm not quite sure if I've fallen,
I have a feeling I will,
But I'll just let time take it's course.

I haven't fallen in love with her,
Not yet.

You'd Be Lucky

I'm unique,
You're not.

I'm different.
You're the same as the others.

Maybe you can find another like me,
But there's a million like you.

And I promise you, honey,
I"ll meet someone true and genuine.

You'd be lucky to meet someone
Worth your time.

You'd be lucky
To have someone like me.

But,
You broke it off,
So there's only you to blame.

If you meet anyone at all,
You'd be damn lucky.

I Don't Give a Fuck

I'll take this knife,
And press it down,
And split a vein or two.
I don't give a fuck.

I'm tired of all your shit,
And don't worry,
You finally hurt me like you wanted.
Brag about it,
I don't give a fuck.

Let my blood cover up my writing,
All about you.
And don't worry,
This last one is easy to read,
Written in my blood.

Don't believe me?
Well fuck you.
I realy did it.
And as for you think...
I don't give a fuck!

I Still Love You

My head is swimming,
And I can't get you off my mind.
Why is this?

You hate me.
You love someone else.
I'm nothing to you.

I treated you so well I thought,
What happened?
Why did we fight?

I sometimes wonder,
Do you ever miss me,
Like I miss you?

I would tell you how I feel,
If I could.

If you happen to stumble across this page,
And read this,
Realizing it's about you...

Just so you know...
I still love you.